Open invitation

 

Two quick episodes this week that were very exciting to me.

I was wearing an older nightgown to bed that I had previously torn two holes in right at my nipples. I put clover clamps on my nipples through the holes with the connecting chain on the outside and knelt on the floor waiting for Mistress to come to the bedroom. She was of course somewhat surprised to find me this way but took it in stride. I usually unclasp her bra and scratch her back each evening. I did this and was kneeling behind her. She then led me on my knees to in front of the mirror and got out a rope. She tied the rope to the ceiling ring and the other end to the chain on the clamps. Not tight, but taught enough that the clamps pulled my nipples upward. Then she left me kneeling there, looking at myself in the mirror, to suffer in pain and wonder how long she would leave me as she got on the bed and proceeded to watch videos on her phone. I do love nipple torture, but all I could think about was the intense pain in my nipples. My hands were free and I could have easily released them, but no, she had put me there and I would not move until she let me go. After a few minutes she came over and asked how I was doing. “In pain” I said. She laughed and said I had done it to myself.

Then I saw that she had a leather paddle in her hand. She yanked my panties up into my ass crack and tucked my nightgown up into the back of my panties.

Then she spanked my ass with the paddle. She beat me good, but it was starting to actually feel good when she stopped. She asked if I had enough and I said no. I can actually handle quite a lot from this paddle. It is narrow, about a foot long and she can hit where she wants quite well. She gave me a good beating now and eventually took hold of the nipple clamp chain and would give it a tug with every smack to my ass. I loved the initiative that she was taking here as she knew that she was free to use and abuse me as I have begged her to do so many times. Finally she stopped and released my crushed nipples. Time for bed and sleep.

As we lay there in bed I told her that this had really affected me. I found it so exciting to be strung up by my nipples and left there at her mercy as she went about her business.

I was so glad that she took the opportunity that I offered by having the clamps on, and then took that a step further and gave me the beating that she knows I crave so much.

I thought about this scene often the next day and pressed my luck when I got ready for bed before she came to the room. This time I put a pair of screw type nipple suction devices on, with the cylinder inside my nightgown and the screws through the holes. Then I knelt at the foot of the bed with my back to the bed and fastened my arms to a pair of under the bed restraints. So there I was, knees spread, arms spread and feeling very vulnerable. She looked me over and asked what she should do with me. I licked my lips and waggled my tongue at her, hoping she would get the hint and sit on my face. She got undressed and then she did plant her pussy on my face. I was so happy to lick her hot wet pussy. It was a somewhat difficult position for her and after a minute or so she turned around and straddled me from behind. This was even better as her pussy was plastered on my mouth and my nose was right in her ass hole. I could only breath through my mouth when I took a break from eating her pussy. It was sooo exciting and I had a pretty firm erection. She noticed this and began slapping my cock hard. Then she moved down to straddle my crotch and managed to get my cock in her pussy. She was fucking as well as she could in this position and I thought she would make me cum as I imagined her sitting on my face and making me eat my cum from her pussy. Unfortunately she could not maintain that position for long and she got up.

I was feeling very vulnerable as my arms were spread wide and now my knees were too. She beat my cock some more and then to my surprise and “pleasure” she began to kick me in the crotch. I have fantasized for a long time about her kicking me in the balls and she did now. I was so aroused that I did not feel pain so much as pleasure. Some of the kicks were planted low on my ass crack and some higher on my hard cock. Finally She released my wrists from their cuffs and told me I could get up now. I could barely get up as my knees were now in such pain from kneeling with my legs spread wide.

Both of these scenes were fairly quick, had no orgasm for either of us, but were deeply affecting to me.

I told her how much it affected me, not that I liked it, but it affected me. I have thought about it many times since then. I told her that I did not want her to feel obligated to do something to or for me when I put myself in these predicaments and that she could just consider it an open invitation to do what or if she pleases. I am thrilled that she seems to be becoming more dominant and cruel to me as time goes by. She says that she is a bully and I don’t discourage her from bullying me if that’s how she feels.

The more she controls and abuses me, the more I love her.

I love, honor, respect, obey, serve and submit to her as I am only a slave and it is a privilege to serve her.