Tuesday, March 12, 2019


I recently brought up the concept of “maintenance” spankings with T. I explained that I understood that she found it difficult to “hurt” me due to her medical career but that I “needed” to receive spankings and whippings. If she didn't give them to me, I would do it to myself.
I talked to her about having a routine “scheduled” time to give me regular spankings. For one thing this would help her become more accustomed to hurting me, it would help remind us both of our roles as dominant and submissive and by having it scheduled, would help keep it going and not forgotten about. Then I hopefully waited for something to happen.
She did give me a few unexpected canings, to my delight (maybe not at the time!).
I basically always wash the dishes. I usually put away leftovers, then go to the bedroom to “prepare” for dishes. This means putting something on my cock and balls. Sometimes a sex toy, often just a brass ring or two or more around the base of my cock and balls. I then present myself for “inspection”, before proceeding with the dishes.
I was putting away leftovers last night when T asked if I was “dressed” for that. I said “not yet” and she told me to go get dressed for dishes. She asked if I was inspired to serve her and I said “yes Ma'am.” I went to the bedroom, put two brass rings around the base of my cock and balls and a smaller one around just my balls. Then I put a pair of supple nip suckers on my nipples. I presented myself for inspection, then did the dishes. Towards the end I accidentally splashed water on the window sill over the sink. I don't know if I made an exclamation or if T saw it but she ordered me to “come here”
She asked if I had gotten water on her window sill. I tried to lamely explain that it was an accident.
I was surprised when she actually scolded for it, then told me to bend over her lap. I did so rather awkwardly. She then used a lint brush to spank my ass. He made a funny hollow sound, but wasn't very painful.
She told me to get up and finish the dishes and to not be such a duck in the future.

This was a step forward as she chose to punish me for something, and not just spank me sexually.
Somewhat scary, but exciting.

Sexually, I was denied an orgasm from January 1 till February 23. Not nearly a record, but fairly long.
T provided me a great scene that weekend when she had me get the under bed restraints out, secured me to the bed, then used a back scratcher on me, all over including my balls and asshole. She then lubed my ass and put something up it. It felt great as she fucked my happy boy pussy. Even better when she used her magic wand vibrator to force me to orgasm without permission. To top it off she caught my cum in her hand and fed it to me.

Last weekend I wore a ball stretching weight over night and had it on when we showered the next morning. T surprised me by stroking my cock in the shower. She got me very erect, then lubed my cock with conditioner. She pumped me hard and pulled on my weighted balls. The pain was glorious and when she bit my nipple I knew I was not supposed to come, but could not stop. I groaned “no, no, no” as she forced me to cum. I was left slumped against the shower wall, totally shattered.

Monday, March 04, 2019


T masturbated me in the shower while I had on a ball weight ring.  She stroked me while pulling on my stretched balls, when she bit my nipple I could not help but come as I uttered "no, no".  I was left shattered and dazed.

Wednesday, January 23, 2019

Craving control

I posted a response to a blog post on one of my favorite blogs "Male Chastity Journal".
It got a bit long so I thought I would copy it here.

Just like so many men, I am excited by the feeling of submission brought about by my wife having control over me.  This is enhanced by doing humiliating things or being "forced" to do or wear something.
I wear panties all the time now.  Yes, it just becomes forgotten about when they are under my pants just like any underwear.  There may be a momentary reminder when I go to the bathroom and see them, but that's it.
Years ago I read of men who were required to wear panties, even having all their men's underwear disposed of, leaving no choice.  Oh, how I craved to have my wife control me in that way. Oh well, most women don't really care about these things so I bought my own panties and replaced my briefs with them.
So many times, in the heat of passion, I have implored my wife to own me, use me, abuse me even in any way she desires. No time for that when life is taken up with TV, facebook and sewing projects.
Am I complaining here?  I suppose so, but when she does take an interest it is wonderful, so I shall appreciate what I have, continue to love and serve her as best I can and enjoy reading about other people wearing purple panties and bunny tails.
I do have a nice long fox tail, she has never made me wear it. pout

Tuesday, January 08, 2019

vibed and controlled

It has been quite some time since I wrote anything. That usually indicates either a lull in the activities or just all is good and proceeding. Sex life has taken a hit over the past year and a half since our oldest son moved home, followed not long after by our youngest daughter who is attending college near enough to commute. So much for empty nesting!
There have been some occasional hot sex scenes that I have not written up since I really didn't get a chance to at the time. One of the reasons for writing this journal was to remember these scenes. I will try to capture the basic activities of a few that I remember, even though it won't be a detailed story.

First off though, I have read about people doing “chemical torture”, meaning applying some type of lotion to the skin that may cause a reaction. Usually this is something menthol like BenGay or IcyHot.
I have been curious about this since reading about a woman who used this to punish her husband when she could not spank him when the kids were home. She would tie him to the bed naked, apply IcyHot to his cock and balls and leave him locked in the bedroom for an hour to ponder his burning bits and better behavior in the future.

I bought a tube of icy hot today. I put some on my balls, spread it all around. It does cause an interesting cold burning sensation. Of course my cock got aroused at this and started to erect, so I put some icy hot on the head, then spread it all down the shaft. Might as well jump right in! So I am writing this as my cock and balls are burning. It is not too bad, tolerable, but a very constant reminder.
I think I will offer the tube to T and see if she would be interested in tormenting me with it. She does like to tease!

Just the other day we had just got out of the shower in the morning. I was naked and hoping for some attention. T picked up a back scratcher that I got recently. It is shaped like a tiny metal hand, with fingers to scratch with. She gently scratched it on my balls, then cock. She eventually got to scratching my cock pretty hard with and and using the little metal fingers to pull wide the opening on my cock head. I was very excited!

She then had me turn around and bend over. She scratched my ass very well, then moved between my legs, eventually getting right in there and scratching my ass hole. She spread my rosebud wide with the little metal fingers. I was soo hot, then she flipped the tool around and poked my ass hole with the handle. She put it in my and fucked me in the boy pussy. My cock was super hard and dripping precum, which she wiped off and fed to me.

She had my fuck her then. Then she had me eat her. At one point she was playing with my cock and sucking the head while she spanked my ass. She had me eat her again and she came, squirting into my mouth.

Last month I bought a new sex toy, a vibrating butt plug with a remote control. I thought it would be very fun to give T control of something like that. I do love giving her control of things to do with my body. I have a ritual now of “dressing” to do dishes. This means putting something on my cock and balls. I usually present myself to T for inspection to show her what I have put on before starting the dishes. This night she told me to get dressed for dishes. She said to put the new vibrating plug in, put on a flowered apron and bring the remote control to her.
She had a great time tormenting me while I did the dishes, turning the vibration on and off, changing the pattern. She especially liked surprising me when she switched it on and watching me jump.
After the dishes were done we watched tv for awhile during which she would occasionally switch on the vibe just to watch my reaction.

We went to bed and she played with the vibe and got me hard. She had me give her a good fucking then. Of course no cumming allowed for me.

This is exactly what also happened on New Years Day but that time she ran the vibe in my boy pussy and told me to come hard in her. I had a roaring orgasm. She said that since it was on New Years day she would be able to know how long she was denying me in the new year.
I do hope it will be for a long time in a tiny cage.

Monday, December 10, 2018

Femmed and fucked

I haven't posted in some time, mainly because I haven't had the opportunity to write up a full post.
So I will just do a quick reminder of what we did last night as I don't want this to be lost,

I put the "new" stainless chastity cage on myself Saturday morning.  That stayed on till Sunday night.
Sunday morning she plucked all the hair from around my nipples, making my nearly hairless chest completely hairless. She talked about feminizing me. Yum!

Finally had play time Sunday evening.
T bound me to bed using under bed restraints.  Tickled me all over and tormented me.
Then caned my ass hard, ouch!
Dribbled cold lube on my ass hole and finger fucked me.  She pounded my "pussy" as she used her hip to make me feel like I was really being fucked.
She asked if I wanted more and I said bigger. She then used her glass dildo and fucked me very well and deep with that. I pleaded with her to fuck her bitch hard. I moaned in excitement and humiliation when she said that my locked up cock was just a useless appendage
She left me bound and plugged as she used the magic wand on herself. That wasn't working and she released my bonds and told me to eat her pussy.

That got her going and she had a squirting orgasm as I finger fucked her pussy.
What a great time!  As I cleaned up she gave me the key to release her cock from the cage.
No orgasm for me but I was very satisfied!

Tuesday, October 02, 2018

Shaved and whipped

A brief summary of some recent highlights as I sit here in a short steel cock cage. T is working late so I am tormenting myself. I had purchased two plastic chastity devices last year, but T did not have much interest in having me wear them. I recently succumbed to temptation and bought this steel cage. It was quite cheap, but the quality is not bad. It is only about 2 inches long, so I have to get it on very fast before I get aroused. I certainly know it is there, between the tight fit and the weight hanging on my cock and balls.

Last week we went on a trip for a week to a conference. It was a fun time in a fun city. Of course I was hoping for some hot hotel monkey sex and got that!
I managed to slip the new cane into T's luggage. One evening she put a pair of over the door cuffs on me and strung me up naked from the bathroom door. Then she used the cane to good measure on my ass. It was an extra thrill when a group of people walked down the hall outside our room. It was only about 6 feet from the door of the room to where she was whipping me. She kept on caning me and I wondered if they could hear the rhythmic whacks from under the door as they walked by. I hope they did!

The last couple years T has shaved my legs either in January or in the Fall. Last fall she shaved my legs, but only trimmed my mound to a stubble and announced that it would stay that way. Come spring when she told me stop shaving my legs, she told me to grow my mound too. I was allowed to continue shaving my cock, balls and ass.
The bathroom in our hotel room had a big marble countertop. I hinted very strongly that it was big enough for someone to lay on it and get shaved at the sink. I also bought a new package of razors.
Fortunately she took that hint and had me get up there naked. She used the razor to shear off my pubic mound, then lathered it up and shaved it clean. Now I have a lovely smooth white mound. She said that she would let me shave my legs after shorts season was over. We had a hot spell last week, but I think I am done with shorts and hope she lets me shave my legs soon.

This morning she said something about putting nail polish on. She said that it was just to protect one damaged fingernail and not because she was femmy enough to maintain polished nails. Then she tweaked my nipple and said “unlike some people!”. Then she hinted that she may put polish on my nails sometime. She has done my toenails a few times and it was wonderful.

She does surprise me at times, which she loves to do. I generally kneel at take her shoes off when she comes in the house or is undressing for bed. The other day she had just put her shoes on when she snapped her fingers and pointed down. I was so confused since she had just put her shoes on. I gave her a questioning look and she pointed down again. I knelt down and she said she just did that to give me a little thrill. She kissed me on top of the head and told me to carry on with what I was doing. I stood and pointed to the partial erection already showing through my pants and told her that she had indeed thrilled me.

A few weeks ago she had me get naked in the bedroom. She got a scarf and tied it around my head as a blindfold, then had me stand against the mirror on the back of the door with my hands over my head. She used her leather belt to whip my ass, then had me turn around and whipped my pubic mound hard.
“You like it hard there don't you?” she asked. I groaned that I did indeed and hoped that it was becoming nice and red. Then she surprised me when I heard the buzz of her magic wand and the sudden application of it's relentless vibrations to my cock. She got me dangerously close to coming and asked if I wanted to come. Oh yes, I wanted release, but we both knew that I would rather be denied until we went away on vacation. She put clamps on my nipples and left me standing there while she used the wand to bring herself to orgasm.

Another time recently we were home alone and she was doing laundry. She gave me a pile of damp jeans and told me to hang them on the clothesline outside. She told me that for every clothes pin I used to hang something that I was to place a pin on myself. I came back in the house with a dozen pins on my cock, balls and nipples. She seemed amused and pleased and left them on me for nearly an hour. Eventually she took them off slowly and enjoyed watching my reaction to the pain of the release.
Later she had me bring in the laundry and of course I had to wear each pin that I took off the line.

We have had a few sessions over the years where I scrubbed the wooden kitchen floor. By hand, on my hands and knees, naked, ball harness with a full soda bottle hanging from my nuts. A few months ago, we had a quiet morning at home and she said it would be a good time to do the floor. She put a leather dog collar around my neck and put on the ball harness. First I had to vacuum the floor. We were in the process of moving the table so I could vacuum under it when our daughter showed up at the kitchen door. It has a large glass window in at and she was very surprised to see me there naked. We both fled in opposite directions and I don't know how much she saw. Although she is our youngest, she is very free thinking and just laughed it off.
My wife would never allow it, but I wish that I could tell my daughters of the benefits of a female led relationship and encourage them to train their boyfriends or husbands to be a good submissive for them. I think that the benefits are great and only wish I had known about this many years ago.

Monday, June 18, 2018


I have not posted anything in many months.  This seems to be a typical problem with blogs that after some time the blogger gets less enthused about writing.  What was once new and exciting has become a, hopefully happy, routine.  So though things have been happening I just have not paused to write about it. 
T continues to control my orgasms, which can range from weekly to several months apart. She does not whip me as frequently as she sometimes has, but when she does they tend to be more severe.  Also she seems to be using less of the belt and more of the cane.  I suppose that may be influenced by my purchasing a real cane after the garden bamboo stick broke.

This past weekend we were at her family camp and the rest of the family had left.  I was hoping that just maybe we could have replay of the last time we were at camp and she switched me with a stick.
She then picked up a small branch from the ground and said we should take a walk to the wooded are of the site.  She playfully switched my bare calves as we walked.  Once we got to our campsite she told me to drop my shorts and lean against a big tree. She whipped my ass and thighs, with the tip wrapping around with a painful sting. She really gave it to me good and had me writhing in pain.
Then she told me to turn around and present my front.  She whipped my thighs and pubic mound, then brought the switch down on my partly erect cock. To her amusement, that only made it become harder the more she whipped it. 
Glutton for punishment, I pulled up my shirt and offered my nipples for her abuse.  She whipped them harshly and I writhed in pain against the rough bark of the tree. The tip of the switch wrapped around and repeatedly struck the side of my chest below my armpits, a very tender spot.  Afterward, there was a pattern of marks left in this area.
At one point she said something about what type of  tree the branch was from and I told her it was birch, then I gave her some background on the use of a "birch" in the Victorian days and the book that influenced my sexuality as a teen, "Birch in the Boudoir".
After she had raised sufficient marks and the mosquitoes had started to devour us, she gave the switch to carry and told me to pull up my pants.  I brought the switch home as she seemed to indicate I should. I told her that contrary as it seemed, I loved her so incredibly much after she whipped me hard.

That night as we readied for bed, I had left the switch on the bed.  I was wearing my very short red lace nightie and she inspected my marks.  She said that one side was not as evident as the other and picked up the switch from bed.  "Are you looking to get whipped again?" she asked.  I tried not to appear to eager to say yes.  Much to my initial joy, and eventual temporary regret, she gave me another serious switching with the birch including whipping my cock into erection. 

T then put the switch in my mouth for me to hold between my teeth as she laid back on the bed and spread her legs.  I happily used my hardened tool to enter her and gave her the nice fucking that she craved.  I was so happy that she became aroused while whipping me hard.
I wondered if she would let me come, since had let me during our last fuck, although she did not follow through and have me eat my cum from her.
She pinched my nipples and I thought of how I had told her of another blogger who signalled to her husband to cum by pinching his nipples.  T told me this time that she knew I wanted that to be my trigger to cum but she did not want it to be because she wanted to pinch my nipples hard and not have me come.  She wants to be able to torment them at well and I brought myself closer to the edge of losing it as I told her that my nipples were hers to torture and use in any way. I thrust into her and said that my nipples need to be pinched hard, clamped, twisted, bit, stretched, whipped and even pierced.
Then she told me stop. She was tired and sore and it was time to sleep.  I stopped and pulled out slowly.  I so love when she controls me in any way, and especially when she controls me sexually.
I kissed her lovingly, then asked if I may kiss her pussy.  She said yes, just a little bit.
I kissed her sweet, wet, just fucked pussy.  I tried to kiss just a little bit, but could not stop myself from licking and sucking her.  But she grabbed my by the hair and pulled me away.
"Time to sleep" she said and she was soon asleep as I lay there hard and horny, red and marked.