Tuesday, January 08, 2019

vibed and controlled

It has been quite some time since I wrote anything. That usually indicates either a lull in the activities or just all is good and proceeding. Sex life has taken a hit over the past year and a half since our oldest son moved home, followed not long after by our youngest daughter who is attending college near enough to commute. So much for empty nesting!
There have been some occasional hot sex scenes that I have not written up since I really didn't get a chance to at the time. One of the reasons for writing this journal was to remember these scenes. I will try to capture the basic activities of a few that I remember, even though it won't be a detailed story.

First off though, I have read about people doing “chemical torture”, meaning applying some type of lotion to the skin that may cause a reaction. Usually this is something menthol like BenGay or IcyHot.
I have been curious about this since reading about a woman who used this to punish her husband when she could not spank him when the kids were home. She would tie him to the bed naked, apply IcyHot to his cock and balls and leave him locked in the bedroom for an hour to ponder his burning bits and better behavior in the future.

I bought a tube of icy hot today. I put some on my balls, spread it all around. It does cause an interesting cold burning sensation. Of course my cock got aroused at this and started to erect, so I put some icy hot on the head, then spread it all down the shaft. Might as well jump right in! So I am writing this as my cock and balls are burning. It is not too bad, tolerable, but a very constant reminder.
I think I will offer the tube to T and see if she would be interested in tormenting me with it. She does like to tease!

Just the other day we had just got out of the shower in the morning. I was naked and hoping for some attention. T picked up a back scratcher that I got recently. It is shaped like a tiny metal hand, with fingers to scratch with. She gently scratched it on my balls, then cock. She eventually got to scratching my cock pretty hard with and and using the little metal fingers to pull wide the opening on my cock head. I was very excited!

She then had me turn around and bend over. She scratched my ass very well, then moved between my legs, eventually getting right in there and scratching my ass hole. She spread my rosebud wide with the little metal fingers. I was soo hot, then she flipped the tool around and poked my ass hole with the handle. She put it in my and fucked me in the boy pussy. My cock was super hard and dripping precum, which she wiped off and fed to me.

She had my fuck her then. Then she had me eat her. At one point she was playing with my cock and sucking the head while she spanked my ass. She had me eat her again and she came, squirting into my mouth.

Last month I bought a new sex toy, a vibrating butt plug with a remote control. I thought it would be very fun to give T control of something like that. I do love giving her control of things to do with my body. I have a ritual now of “dressing” to do dishes. This means putting something on my cock and balls. I usually present myself to T for inspection to show her what I have put on before starting the dishes. This night she told me to get dressed for dishes. She said to put the new vibrating plug in, put on a flowered apron and bring the remote control to her.
She had a great time tormenting me while I did the dishes, turning the vibration on and off, changing the pattern. She especially liked surprising me when she switched it on and watching me jump.
After the dishes were done we watched tv for awhile during which she would occasionally switch on the vibe just to watch my reaction.

We went to bed and she played with the vibe and got me hard. She had me give her a good fucking then. Of course no cumming allowed for me.

This is exactly what also happened on New Years Day but that time she ran the vibe in my boy pussy and told me to come hard in her. I had a roaring orgasm. She said that since it was on New Years day she would be able to know how long she was denying me in the new year.
I do hope it will be for a long time in a tiny cage.

Monday, December 10, 2018

Femmed and fucked

I haven't posted in some time, mainly because I haven't had the opportunity to write up a full post.
So I will just do a quick reminder of what we did last night as I don't want this to be lost,

I put the "new" stainless chastity cage on myself Saturday morning.  That stayed on till Sunday night.
Sunday morning she plucked all the hair from around my nipples, making my nearly hairless chest completely hairless. She talked about feminizing me. Yum!

Finally had play time Sunday evening.
T bound me to bed using under bed restraints.  Tickled me all over and tormented me.
Then caned my ass hard, ouch!
Dribbled cold lube on my ass hole and finger fucked me.  She pounded my "pussy" as she used her hip to make me feel like I was really being fucked.
She asked if I wanted more and I said bigger. She then used her glass dildo and fucked me very well and deep with that. I pleaded with her to fuck her bitch hard. I moaned in excitement and humiliation when she said that my locked up cock was just a useless appendage
She left me bound and plugged as she used the magic wand on herself. That wasn't working and she released my bonds and told me to eat her pussy.

That got her going and she had a squirting orgasm as I finger fucked her pussy.
What a great time!  As I cleaned up she gave me the key to release her cock from the cage.
No orgasm for me but I was very satisfied!

Tuesday, October 02, 2018

Shaved and whipped

A brief summary of some recent highlights as I sit here in a short steel cock cage. T is working late so I am tormenting myself. I had purchased two plastic chastity devices last year, but T did not have much interest in having me wear them. I recently succumbed to temptation and bought this steel cage. It was quite cheap, but the quality is not bad. It is only about 2 inches long, so I have to get it on very fast before I get aroused. I certainly know it is there, between the tight fit and the weight hanging on my cock and balls.

Last week we went on a trip for a week to a conference. It was a fun time in a fun city. Of course I was hoping for some hot hotel monkey sex and got that!
I managed to slip the new cane into T's luggage. One evening she put a pair of over the door cuffs on me and strung me up naked from the bathroom door. Then she used the cane to good measure on my ass. It was an extra thrill when a group of people walked down the hall outside our room. It was only about 6 feet from the door of the room to where she was whipping me. She kept on caning me and I wondered if they could hear the rhythmic whacks from under the door as they walked by. I hope they did!

The last couple years T has shaved my legs either in January or in the Fall. Last fall she shaved my legs, but only trimmed my mound to a stubble and announced that it would stay that way. Come spring when she told me stop shaving my legs, she told me to grow my mound too. I was allowed to continue shaving my cock, balls and ass.
The bathroom in our hotel room had a big marble countertop. I hinted very strongly that it was big enough for someone to lay on it and get shaved at the sink. I also bought a new package of razors.
Fortunately she took that hint and had me get up there naked. She used the razor to shear off my pubic mound, then lathered it up and shaved it clean. Now I have a lovely smooth white mound. She said that she would let me shave my legs after shorts season was over. We had a hot spell last week, but I think I am done with shorts and hope she lets me shave my legs soon.

This morning she said something about putting nail polish on. She said that it was just to protect one damaged fingernail and not because she was femmy enough to maintain polished nails. Then she tweaked my nipple and said “unlike some people!”. Then she hinted that she may put polish on my nails sometime. She has done my toenails a few times and it was wonderful.

She does surprise me at times, which she loves to do. I generally kneel at take her shoes off when she comes in the house or is undressing for bed. The other day she had just put her shoes on when she snapped her fingers and pointed down. I was so confused since she had just put her shoes on. I gave her a questioning look and she pointed down again. I knelt down and she said she just did that to give me a little thrill. She kissed me on top of the head and told me to carry on with what I was doing. I stood and pointed to the partial erection already showing through my pants and told her that she had indeed thrilled me.

A few weeks ago she had me get naked in the bedroom. She got a scarf and tied it around my head as a blindfold, then had me stand against the mirror on the back of the door with my hands over my head. She used her leather belt to whip my ass, then had me turn around and whipped my pubic mound hard.
“You like it hard there don't you?” she asked. I groaned that I did indeed and hoped that it was becoming nice and red. Then she surprised me when I heard the buzz of her magic wand and the sudden application of it's relentless vibrations to my cock. She got me dangerously close to coming and asked if I wanted to come. Oh yes, I wanted release, but we both knew that I would rather be denied until we went away on vacation. She put clamps on my nipples and left me standing there while she used the wand to bring herself to orgasm.

Another time recently we were home alone and she was doing laundry. She gave me a pile of damp jeans and told me to hang them on the clothesline outside. She told me that for every clothes pin I used to hang something that I was to place a pin on myself. I came back in the house with a dozen pins on my cock, balls and nipples. She seemed amused and pleased and left them on me for nearly an hour. Eventually she took them off slowly and enjoyed watching my reaction to the pain of the release.
Later she had me bring in the laundry and of course I had to wear each pin that I took off the line.

We have had a few sessions over the years where I scrubbed the wooden kitchen floor. By hand, on my hands and knees, naked, ball harness with a full soda bottle hanging from my nuts. A few months ago, we had a quiet morning at home and she said it would be a good time to do the floor. She put a leather dog collar around my neck and put on the ball harness. First I had to vacuum the floor. We were in the process of moving the table so I could vacuum under it when our daughter showed up at the kitchen door. It has a large glass window in at and she was very surprised to see me there naked. We both fled in opposite directions and I don't know how much she saw. Although she is our youngest, she is very free thinking and just laughed it off.
My wife would never allow it, but I wish that I could tell my daughters of the benefits of a female led relationship and encourage them to train their boyfriends or husbands to be a good submissive for them. I think that the benefits are great and only wish I had known about this many years ago.

Monday, June 18, 2018


I have not posted anything in many months.  This seems to be a typical problem with blogs that after some time the blogger gets less enthused about writing.  What was once new and exciting has become a, hopefully happy, routine.  So though things have been happening I just have not paused to write about it. 
T continues to control my orgasms, which can range from weekly to several months apart. She does not whip me as frequently as she sometimes has, but when she does they tend to be more severe.  Also she seems to be using less of the belt and more of the cane.  I suppose that may be influenced by my purchasing a real cane after the garden bamboo stick broke.

This past weekend we were at her family camp and the rest of the family had left.  I was hoping that just maybe we could have replay of the last time we were at camp and she switched me with a stick.
She then picked up a small branch from the ground and said we should take a walk to the wooded are of the site.  She playfully switched my bare calves as we walked.  Once we got to our campsite she told me to drop my shorts and lean against a big tree. She whipped my ass and thighs, with the tip wrapping around with a painful sting. She really gave it to me good and had me writhing in pain.
Then she told me to turn around and present my front.  She whipped my thighs and pubic mound, then brought the switch down on my partly erect cock. To her amusement, that only made it become harder the more she whipped it. 
Glutton for punishment, I pulled up my shirt and offered my nipples for her abuse.  She whipped them harshly and I writhed in pain against the rough bark of the tree. The tip of the switch wrapped around and repeatedly struck the side of my chest below my armpits, a very tender spot.  Afterward, there was a pattern of marks left in this area.
At one point she said something about what type of  tree the branch was from and I told her it was birch, then I gave her some background on the use of a "birch" in the Victorian days and the book that influenced my sexuality as a teen, "Birch in the Boudoir".
After she had raised sufficient marks and the mosquitoes had started to devour us, she gave the switch to carry and told me to pull up my pants.  I brought the switch home as she seemed to indicate I should. I told her that contrary as it seemed, I loved her so incredibly much after she whipped me hard.

That night as we readied for bed, I had left the switch on the bed.  I was wearing my very short red lace nightie and she inspected my marks.  She said that one side was not as evident as the other and picked up the switch from bed.  "Are you looking to get whipped again?" she asked.  I tried not to appear to eager to say yes.  Much to my initial joy, and eventual temporary regret, she gave me another serious switching with the birch including whipping my cock into erection. 

T then put the switch in my mouth for me to hold between my teeth as she laid back on the bed and spread her legs.  I happily used my hardened tool to enter her and gave her the nice fucking that she craved.  I was so happy that she became aroused while whipping me hard.
I wondered if she would let me come, since had let me during our last fuck, although she did not follow through and have me eat my cum from her.
She pinched my nipples and I thought of how I had told her of another blogger who signalled to her husband to cum by pinching his nipples.  T told me this time that she knew I wanted that to be my trigger to cum but she did not want it to be because she wanted to pinch my nipples hard and not have me come.  She wants to be able to torment them at well and I brought myself closer to the edge of losing it as I told her that my nipples were hers to torture and use in any way. I thrust into her and said that my nipples need to be pinched hard, clamped, twisted, bit, stretched, whipped and even pierced.
Then she told me stop. She was tired and sore and it was time to sleep.  I stopped and pulled out slowly.  I so love when she controls me in any way, and especially when she controls me sexually.
I kissed her lovingly, then asked if I may kiss her pussy.  She said yes, just a little bit.
I kissed her sweet, wet, just fucked pussy.  I tried to kiss just a little bit, but could not stop myself from licking and sucking her.  But she grabbed my by the hair and pulled me away.
"Time to sleep" she said and she was soon asleep as I lay there hard and horny, red and marked.

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Bed bound

This past weekend, T and I got away for the weekend to a small resort. Of course, my plans were to have lots of kinky sex. Unfortunately the rustic room did not encourage too much, between the tiny shower stall and the proximity of neighbors through thin walls. Too bad, that heavy posted bed frame really stoked my fantasies.
I had come prepared with a new toy, a butt plug with a fox tail. I was hoping that T would put that in me and treat my like a dog, complete with collar and chain leash. Alas, that did not happen. I did present T with a temporary tattoo that said Property of T. She put it on my chest, over my heart.

Last year at this time, we took a vacation to the Florida Keys. We had awesome sex, including T trimming all the hair off my legs and pubes, then shaving me clean. I was hoping that she would be ready for me to be shorn and brought the electric hair trimmers.

She had me get those out and I got naked. She asked if I was sure that I wanted to do this. “Yes, please!”, I said. She trimmed off all the hair on my legs, then did my pubes all the way to my navel. “This will stay a five oclock shadow”, she said, “but get in the shower and shave your legs. I want it perfect!”.

I did my best in the poorly lit, tiny shower stall. Fortunately, she was not inspecting closely.
After that she had me get out some ropes and tied my hands over my head to the bed frame. She then straddled me and placed her wet pussy on my face. I ate her pussy with gusto. She ground on me and smothered me as my nose was deep between her ass cheeks. She teased my cock with her magic wand, then switched around and tried to ride my cock. For some reason, we just could not get it in to her pussy, even with a dollop of lube. Finally she untied me from the bed and had me stand up. She then used the rope to whip my ass. Some of the whipping caught my balls from behind. Then she had me turn around and whipped my cock with the rope. It got very hard now, even when she intentionally hit my balls. Some of those strikes were quite painful, but I kept on offering them up for more.

She then laid down on the bed and said that she wanted my to put my cock in her pussy now. I did so and gave her a nice fucking. I am so lucky that she does enjoy this as I have read of some dommes who do not allow their subs to enter them anymore. It is a hot fantasy to be made a born again virgin for the rest of my life, but I do like getting to have intercourse.

I was getting close to cumming and T pushed me off. She used her magic wand to bring herself to tow orgasms. After she came, I licked her pussy gently.

She drifted off to sleep, but of course I was still ready to go! I have hinted to T in the past that if she was not interested in sex, she could just tie me up or put me in some sort of torture while she watched tv or read. I put a pair of nipple suckers on and put a jewelled butt plug up my ass. Then I used a set of chinese handcuffs ( red ropes looped togther) to tie my hands over my head to the bed post. They were very tight to get my hand through and I knew that I could not get them off myself. I was naked and helpless until she woke to release me. I writhed on the butt plug as our neighbors talked loudly on the porch outside our door. What would they think if they knew a naked man was tied to the bed less than ten feet away?

I think I may have dozed a little, but mainly I was awake. My shoulders ached, but this was something I have craved, to be helplessly bound for more than just a few minutes. Finally T woke up. She was somewhat surprised to see my state, but it was not something totally unexpected. She rolled over and put her knees up in front of me. She knows that I have a strange kink of grinding my balls on her knees. I strained in my bonds and pressed my balls against her. She apparently finds this to be soothing and drifted off to sleep again. I ground my balls against her for over half an hour. The next time she woke and looked at the clock and realized we needed to be getting to dinner. She released my hands and I got up to dress. She asked if I could wear the plug for dinner. I was only to happy to do so. I dressed in black thigh high stockings with red lace tops and a black garter belt. A tight gray shirt showed off my stretched nipples. No panties for the evening. Such a slut.

Pee like a girl

While traveling recently, T asked me to find a bathroom stop for her. I pulled into a Dunkin Donuts and we both went in. She headed to the women's and I to the mens. The green vacant symbol was showing on the door as I turned the knob and opened the door. A man inside exclaimed in panic”There's someone in here!”. “Sorry” I said as I shut the door. I waited outside of the door until T came out of the women's room. She apparently had heard what happened. She told me “Use the women's”. I was rather surprised at this and did not respond. “I mean it”, she said, “ Go in the women's bathroom and pee like a girl!”. I hesitated for a moment, glanced around quickly, and went in.
I usually pee sitting down anyway these days when I am using a coed toilet, like at home and at my office. I am wearing panties, so it does make sense to sit. I dropped my jeans and panties and sat to pee, "like a girl".

I came out of the bathroom warily, wondering what I would say if there should be a woman waiting to enter. The only one there was T, enjoying my embarrassment.

This was certainly a step forward in her control, and in placing me in a position of potential public humiliation. Rather scary, but exciting.

Using the bathroom at Dunkin Donuts will never be the same.  

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Birthday whipping boy

Our kinky play started many years ago with birthday spankings. After a few years I really began to look forward to our birthdays and the opportunities to either give or receive a spanking. Eventually we did not need the excuse of a birthday spanking, but it was still often a special spanking occasion.
More recently the birthday spanking has not always happened due to busy schedules and home life. We talked about a birthday spanking for T recently including discussing whether she would get spanked or if her spanking boy (me) would take the spanking for her.

Last weekend we had the rare occasion of a Saturday morning with no kids at home. I suggested that it might be a good time for her birthday spanking. She asked if I wanted to give or receive. I really do love to be spanked and am always the one to get spanked now. Years ago, T was the one who got spanked. I asked if she would actually want to be spanked, just because she never gets to. She said that was fine, she felt no need to be spanked and that I could take it for her. Okay with me!

T told me to get out some spanking implements. I put out on the bed the following: small flogger, large flogger, riding crop, “rooster” leather fly swatter and two leather belts. She said I was missing something and it took me a moment or so to realize that she meant the switch that she had cut in the woods a few weeks ago. It's gives quite a sting!

T then used a bandana to blindfold me and used a scarf to tie my hands behind my back. Wow, a kinky spanking! She then started out by stroking the flogger gently and teasingly over me. She does love to tease! Then she began lightly flogging me all over, then working up to whapping me hard with the small flogger. This led to using the larger flogger, then the crop. I am not sure if she used everything since I could not see. Usually a birthday spanking is either the number of years on each body part to be spanked or the number of years with each implement. If she was counting at all I could not tell and I was just as happy to receive as many swats as she felt like giving me. She did give me swats, hits, whipping and beatings on my ass, thighs, back, nipples, belly, cock, balls and asshole. I am such a pain slut as I really encouraged her to whip my balls, telling her that they were useless and only good for torturing. She replied to that by getting out a bunch of clothespins and putting them on my scrotum, such delicious pain.

A month or so ago she had spun a fantasy about removing the hair from around my nipples. That is the only place on my chest that has hair. I heard her getting something from the bathroom and was excited when she returned and I felt her using tweezers to pull on the hairs, then yanking them out of my chest.
She did a very thorough job and got every hair. I told her that I really wanted to have her remove these signs of masculinity from my body. After all the hairs was plucked from my nipples, she moved down and pulled some from my pubic mound. My cock and balls are completely shaved already, but she did pluck some from my inner thighs.

She then told me to get down on the floor on my back. She kicked my legs apart and made me spread my arms. I felt very vulnerable like this and she took advantage of this as she whipped my chest, cock and balls. She then told me to pull my knees up so she could inspect my ass hole. She used the tweezers to yank some hairs there that I had missed while shaving then whipped my wide spread hole.

She then left me on the floor and I heard the buzz of the magic wand vibrator as she used it on her pussy. I was left naked and blindfolded on the floor with my balls covered with clothespins as she brought herself to an orgasm while I shook those pins as hard as I could. I love when she has her pleasure while I am suffering in pain.

I was still blindfolded as she straddled my face and placed her wet pussy on my mouth. I was only too happy to eat her! After a minute or two of that I was happily shocked to feel the magic wand vibrator on my cock. She used it to vibrate the clothespins that were still on my scrotum. Then she used it on my cock head.

I put my arms under her legs and at first she thought I was trying to push her away, then realized I reacted positively when my wrist was pinned down. Yes, that's what I want, to be pinned down helplessly on the floor, her pussy grinding on my face, as she tortures my cock. This was just so intense along with that relentless magic wand that I had no ability to even think about not coming. It was happening whether I wanted to or not. She made me come with a roar and scream, then she kept up the relentless vibrations in what was becoming excruciating post orgasm torture. The orgasm was so great, but I just wanted it to stop. I got what I deserved though, as she dominated me and tortured me.

Finally she removed the wand and wiped up my cum. I had completely forgotten about our recent “rule” that if I orgasm, I must eat my cum. Next thing I knew, she was using her fingers to feed my my cum and wipe it all over my lips. This was very degrading and submissive, but I loved it.
I was shocked back to reality when she took the first clothespin off. They always hurt most coming off and even more so when it after the orgasm! She said, “ Oh, I should have thought to take these off when you were coming.”

I was so satiated that I just wanted to stay there on the floor and sleep. What a great birthday spanking that turned out to be and I was so happy to be her whipping boy.

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Come come again

Despite being in a typical state of orgasm denial I have been granted orgasms about every other week recently. Seems like less than that!

My past two orgasms were memorable.

We were in the bedroom when T decided that I need some whipping and told me to get naked. I did so and waited for her to instruct me to bend over if that was what she wanted rather than just doing so automatically. I am glad I waited for instructions as she told me to get down on the floor, head down, ass up. She then used her belt to whip my ass. She gave me a very good whipping, finishing up with standing front of me with her feet at my face. I kissed and licked her feet as she whipped me hard. I was in total submissive joy! But that wasn't the end as she spread my cheeks and whipped deep in the crack and right on to my hungry ass hole. She surprised me then by fingering my puckered hole. She asked if I wanted this and I grunted “yes please”. Then I heard packaging opening as she opened a pair of rubber gloves and snapped them on. She is a nurse, so cleanliness is super important to her. Then she fingered my ass, putting a finger inside and fucking me gently with first one, then two fingers.
Then she got out my jewelled steel plugs and had me select one from the bag of two. She lubed my hole and pressed that plug against my man pussy and it was eagerly sucked in. She fucked it in and out. I was loving this and wanted more. I did not want to “top from the bottom”, but asked helpfully if I could get out something else for her to use. I got out my glass dildoes and selected a blue one with a slender shaft and a bulbous head. She worked that in and began fucking me with it. It was sooooo goood. But it got even better when she began tugging my balls hard, oh I love to be tortured! But she gave me pleasure then as she began stroking my hard cock with her lube covered gloved hand. This was too good and I gasped out that she was going to make me come! I was completely beyond control and came like a wild man. She did not stop then, no she kept on stroking me with agonizing post orgasmic torture. She loves to tease, but I don't know if she realized how much I just wanted it to stop right then. But she is in control so I just had to squeal like a piggy and endure it.
She pulled the plug out of my ass with a plop and wiped my come into my ass crack. Well I would not be eating my come this time.

The next orgasm, two weeks later, came during lovely, very standard intercourse. I was fucking away and managing to do so quite well without feeling compelled to need to come too quick. Then T started talking about me coming. Damn, just thinking about it made me feel like I wanted to right then. I was doing okay until she started talking about how she was not going to let me come anyway, but if she did, I would be required to eat my cum. Then she said that she wanted to come also so that I would have to eat our mixed juices. This was all too much and I begged to please be allowed to come and made to eat it. She said that I could and I came with a roar. Then T let me have a nice settling time after as I collapsed. I thought that was very nice until she said that she wanted to let me come down from my high and be completely over my orgasm and ready to nap when she made me eat my cum from her pussy. Then she pushed me down to her crotch as she got the magic wand vibrator out and applied it to her clit. I began licking her pussy and swallowing my cum. I was not so keen on eating it now, but kept at it until she came and I drank down her pee which was rather strong flavored today. I licked up every drop as I thought of how I was drinking our mixed fluids in a sign of my devotion and our loving relationship.